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houseboy has PMS (post masturbation syndrome) Masturbators anonymous. No The Ms. Louise Method. As Ms. Louise's very lucky new house boy i am now very motivated to please and entertain Her. This includes me surrendering power and Ms. Louise taking from me. What a great combo platter. Naturally it includes sexual control. AND to break my masturbation habit, paradigm, addiction and any stronger word You can think of . my old owner controlled me through exploiting my masturbation weakness. This included chastity with the CB 3000 however you could pull your cock out. However it did provide some reminder. i became a chronic masturbator. i was conditioned to think of Her. Even when viewing other Dom websites i ultimately thought of Her. She has moved away and i am trying to break the habit with Ms. Louise's "guidance." Ms. Louise has used the CB 3000 on me as some minimal form of control. As of this writing i have gone 3 days without masturbating. Cold turkey so to speak. During my last visit Ms. Louise ordered me to masturbate in front of Her. After knowing Her for several months i am now somewhat embarrassed to masturbate in front of Her. She treats me as a human slave. So the human treatment has resulted in a friendship. i don't masturbate in front of my friends nor women that i have sexual relations with. my previous owner treated me solely as a slave so the detachment of no friendship made it easy to masturbate in front of Her and do as i am told no matter what. i am not dwelling on this "friendship hesitation/embarrassment" but it did cross my mind. Ms. Louise is very special. She is hot, sexy, smart funny and well balanced. i am coming around to Her training methods. In fact i really like them and have been able to exorcise many of my thoughts of my prior owner. The main objective is to break my masturbation habit and have Ms. Louise take control of me sexually. i have a great attraction to this total surrender power exchange mixed in with great fear. i have been thinking about getting a piercing so the chastity devices will truly work. my fear was a little relieved knowing it wouldn't have to be permanent. Of course, who knows to what level Ms. Louise would control me through other methods along with a piercing and chastity device. i do not underestimate Her power. First i would like to exhaust other habit breaking methods before going to that step. i have to stop justifying. Such as i am thinking about becoming a farmer so why not "choke the chicken" or a zoo keeper and "spank the monkey" (that even throws a little corporal in there), or a plumber "clean out the pipes" or an Olympic weight lifter with the "clean and jerk" So i am formally begging Ms. Louise to enroll me in a masturbation (other than under Her control of course) free world. i look forward to Her curriculum. i am certain that Ms. Louise's deeper control of me will benefit Her as i will become even more motivated to serve and obey Her. To entertain and make her life more convenient and pleasurable.to free Her of menial tasks. For me i will feel more useful and have purpose. So i have now gone in to day 5 with no release.However i did weaken and have a little play session with myself last night after another very fun training and serving session with Ms. Louise. i am worried that i may weaken during this writing however Ms. Louise ordered me to not masturbate and certainly not release. i know i will be punished for last night's unauthorized play party. Ms. Louise did toy with me yesterday ordering me to stroke it for sixty seconds and to release on command at Ground Zero and if not i would receive 60 more riding crop swats. i failed so 60 more whacks while still stroking. How confusing is that? Pain vs. pleasure. i am not that coordinated to deal with both so of course i didn't come again so here i am UNreleased and All Shooked Up..... i hope this isn't some subconscious Freudian Dead Elvis fascination. So what happens when i leave is that i am distracted and compelled to text my owner stating how i am totally whipped and willing to do anything, anywhere in front of anyone for Her. i can't focus on much else other than thinking how badly i crave to be Her slave, to be used by Her and to serve and obey. To be truly OWNED by Ms. Louise. i realize it will be on Her terms and not my old fantasies. i am determined to succeed and meet Her terms and conditions. i know She wants me to still have a life and to be well balanced. That doesn't mean She couldn't completely own me. i know She could control me to whatever degree She decides. Of course, i am weak and would expect i will always crave and need for Her to pull me deeper and deeper into Her grasp. i am so lucky to have found Ms. Louise. She is very fun, smart and down to earth, a natural domme, always keeps me off balance and i never know what to expect. i am grateful for Her control of me, especially of my little head. i am feeling like a new slave!!!!! Ready eager and very willing...... Your ass kissing, sandwich retrieving slut bitch, hos |