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How i became a chastity slave This rendition of the facts leading up to and then into my life as a chastity slave is 100% true and accurate with no exaggeration or fantasy. The decision to be a 24/7 chastity slave was a consensual one that occurred after 'playing' for over ten years with Pro-Dommes. The last eight plus years with a wonderful, beautiful Dominant Female named Mistress Louise D (MLD). MLD has also become one of my closest Friends since we share our lives outside BDSM. I am married and have been 'with' my wife for over 22 years. The first ten we played in the bedroom and then slowly after the kids came, she refused to play anymore. i was cut off and that's when i started to see Pro-Dommes. i have seen over 30 Pro-Dommes, from all the United States (when I traveled for work and finally met MLD. i could go on for pages, but suffice to say, MLD is the real deal. There was a real connection and MLD over the years has opened up my submissive side beyond anything i could imagine. She pushed my limits until there were none in that area and Her genuine sincerity in Her craft is incredible. Anyway, about 4 years ago, my wife lost complete interest in sex altogether and my sex life consisted of rubbing her out an orgasm while she jerked me off. However, my actually likes to watch me jerk off to completion. No intercourse, no oral, either way (which is my favorite to give) and the mutual hand orgasms happens 3 to 4 times a year. The rest of the time, i was jerking off at least once a day to Femdom Porn. i felt empty and unfulfilled, as well as for all practical purposes, I was a chastity slave, since my penis was being used for nothing. During this period of time, I played regularly with MLD and was introduced to chastity. At first I said never, since I felt i was paying for the training, the least i got was to come during play- clearly, no sexual acts between MLD and myself, but forced masturbation in a million humiliating ways. Slowly, i began to realize what true submission meant. i became MLD's houseboy and i would, on my own time, clean MLD's studio without any expectation of compensation. i came to clean and that was a powerful from of submission. Naked, collared, and chastised, cleaning MLD's toilet was very humbling, but submitting on a different level than play. Also, it truly helped MLD and that was great satisfaction on my part. When i cleaned, there was no play, so to speak, but MLD dominated me psychologically by directing me to do each chore. Also, during this time, i got into chastity. So before each play date and during houseboy duties, i was chastised. i would give MLD the keys 2 or 3 days before play and then release and that was it. i soon realized that i really liked teasing and denial and thought of not having control of your own penis was a mindblower. you can't even touch it, get an erection or release; this goes right to the male ego and to give up that goes right to the heart of your manhood. But, i figured i wasn't using my penis anyway. And i had this habit of jerking off all the time, why not give up control of something so much a part of your own identity. Plus, MLD was the right person to do this with. i trust Her without hesitation. Someone to control my release is truly submitting in a 'real' sense and not for a couple hours of play. i was seeking a 24/7 submissive role within my life as it is, i.e. married with children. I had many discussion with MLD about this and i think She was skeptical, since She knows the male species very well. i finally convinced Her to try it and a contract was drawn up (see the contract link), which for all intended purposes, gives MLD complete and utter control of my manhood. i was at the mercy and controlling whim of MLD. What a mindblower. So the following is my real life journal of my journey into the world of enforced chastity. Journal: Week 1 First week: i am locked up on Monday and was told to report back on Friday. The Wednesday before MLD told me to have all the fun I could get, so I wacked off 4 times) because starting on Monday my chastity training would begin and it did. i arrived at MLD's studio at 9 AM, as instructed. And with little fanfare, MLD locked me in the CB-2000 and began training with 5 straight days in the device. So much for working into the training, slowly. i am extremely aware of my groin area since the CB-2000 crushes the balls to an extreme. i work out everyday, so i am apprehensive about the locker room. i am able to get in a routine at the gym, so nobody sees my locked up cock. Correction, MLD's locked up cock. The feeling of submission wash over me as the first few days are very difficult. At night, i wake up because my usual raging hard on is pressing violently against my cage. It hurts and takes about 15 minutes to go away. I don't sleep well the first couple of days, but day by day i can sleep better. What a profound physical and more importantly psychological effect not being in control of my manhood. It is controlling in my mind and i have a hard time focusing at work. As MLD states, "your too focused on that cock," and She is right. i don't think any woman can appreciate the depth of the psychological impact on a man when you take away his control over his penis. i want to wack off so bad and I am horny as hell as every Woman looks good to me. But, the cage brings me back to reality that my penis is now not available or usable. i struggle with all these emotions and feelings and find it very difficult and consider backing out of the contract. But i do not because this is something i want to prove to myself that i can do. Plus, MLD seems growingly amused by my predicament. i think She likes having a real 24/7 chastity slave. Making it real as She has a profound impact. Not just a couple of hours of play, but every day. i arrive and report to MLD's studio at 9 and i requested and was granted 1 hour of play time. MLD dildos me hard with the chastity device on and plays a devilish game of manipulating my prostrate. i am, after the hour of play, allowed to release and have a very intense and powerful orgasm. MLD ordered me to come in Her latex glove and her laughter just added to the intensity. i am then put in a cock ring and ordered to report to Her on Monday at 9 AM to be confined. i can't believe i made it through the first week, which i believe is the hardest. Journal: Week 2 Unfortunately for me my wife on Sunday wanted her quality rub art orgasm (no sex) and watch me jerk off (what's up with women liking guys jerking off, but i am not complaining). my luck, my wife who i haven't had intercourse with or given head for years, but she would pick the 1st weekend to request i rub an orgasm for her. Sure enough, on Monday, MLD immediately asks if i have had any unauthorized releases. i am truthful with Her and that evil grin appears on Her face (when i knows means trouble) states we'll take care of that violation of the contract later. i ask what i am suppose to do and MLD states i should have done what i did but there will be consequences. MLD slaps my penis a few times before She locks me up. Another week of feeling horny as hell and restless night, but i am getting a little used to the CB-2000 for everyday wear. Counting the days until Friday and i arrived at the studio at noon on Friday, expecting to get a release, but no such luck. i am released from the confinement and again a cock ring is put on, but no seminal release. "This is just part of your punishment," states MLD "and we will see you on Monday." Crap, this is getting difficult and MLD is really getting into this, so it is a weekend with no release. Journal: Week 3 Long weekend and i wanted to jerk off, bad, but rules are rules. The cock ring is tight and reminds me of my status as a chastity slave. At 9 AM sharp, on Monday, MLD is in a good mood and has me strip and puts saran wrap on the ground in front of me. But before i am allowed to release, MLD gives my most tender balls 10 strokes with Her crop. MLD then sits in Her chair (She is in street clothes, because this is not play time) and starts to file her nails and commands me to stroke. It's been 7 days since i touched my cock and it's very sensitive, but MLD makes me stroke it for 5 minutes before i am allowed to release. Again, a very intense orgasm. i am immediately locked up and sent on my way and ordered to report back on Friday. During the week i can honestly say that at times i am aware of the chastity device. i still get awakened at night be the hard on's and it still hurts. But i think i am adapting better, not there yet, but better. Come Friday, i am released from confinement and ringed, but not allowed to release my semen. Over the weekend, i am hornier than hell and get on the internet and for the first time since the enforced chastity, i start masturbating to Femdom porn sites. i almost come, but stop, thinking i will be allowed to release on Monday. my penis is so sensitive it is crazy. The ring is a constant reminder of my status and obligation under the contract. It's not my cock anymore and that concept blows my mind. Journal: Week 4 Monday morning, I report the unauthorized touching and stroking of my cock to MLD. She quizzes me on how long and how many strokes. I blabber on about 5 to ten minutes. That grin appears again Her face and she states, "No release. you violated the contract." i am locked back in the device. i am stunned and horny as hell. i have had only 3 orgasms (2 authorized and 1 unauthorized) in the past three weeks. Shoot, i used to jerk off 3 times a day, sometimes. my balls are a dark shade of red and really stand out from the rest of my body. The week is difficult. Come Thursday (MLD is going out of town on Friday), MLD has decided to really push the envelop. i am ordered just to drop my pants, the device is removed, and i am ordered to stand in the corner and begin to jerk off. But not allowed to release. my balls feel like they weigh a ton as MLD goes on about Her business in the Studio as i stand in the corner, pants down, wacking off. But, i forgot to mention that MLD, after removing the device, cropped my penis and balls at least 10 times. i am ready to explode, it has been 12 days since my last release and only 3 times in 25 days. But who is counting? i am made to stroke for 30 minutes and MLD was going to ring me again, but i requested to be put back in the device because at this point i would not trust myself. MLD just giggled at that request, but i did not want to screw up and either masturbate or release if i was just ringed. Reality is much more difficult than fantasy. i would jerk off to Femdom chastity sites on the net, but now i am living with this concept 24/7 and it is hard. i hope and pray i release on Monday, because it will be the end of the first month of enforced chastity. If i do release, it will only be the 4th time in four weeks and the first time in 14 days. That's incredible, when i think about it, because i want to cum so bad, but at the same time, i feel so close to MLD, as well as extremely submissive. MLD has complete control of my release and i have willingly given that to Her. As i sit here on Friday, counting the day until Monday, i can't believe i am actually doing this. Living a lifestyle you only dream about and MLD has to be the most wonderful person to give me this opportunity. Besides, She is really enjoying Herself. Journal: Week 5 i report to MLD's Studio at 1:00PM. i have some domestic chores to do and help MLD with some Studio work. i bring Her lunch and she comments on the bulge in my pants. "Too bad it isn't real," giggles MLD, as we eat lunch. i am about out of my mind because it has been 14 days since release and 12 straight days that i have been locked in the device. i help MLD hang some large mirrors and then vacuum the rugs and scrub the bathroom floors. After which, MLD informs me that i will be unlocked and will go to the bathroom, kneel in front of the toilet and release into the toilet. i am unlocked and scoot to the bathroom and jerk off into the toilet while MLD is in the other room. my release, i guess, is of no consequence to Her or it adds to my humiliation or both. Anyway, i release in 30 seconds, as MLD laughs from the other room. What an intense orgasm and the humiliation of releasing in the toilet only adds to my submission. i am put back in the cock ring and sent home. i am very busy at work and my cell phone does not work sometimes, so on Thursday, i call MLD after She left me a message the day before. i am informed that because i failed to call Her back the day before, i will be punished on the following Monday, since MLD is going out of town. MLD is not happy i am not going to be locked up and tells me i am in for it and that as usual i cannot release over the weekend. i am to report to Her on Monday at noon with lunch for MLD and probably to get disciplined and locked back in the device. Oh well, life as a chastity slave has it ups and downs. Not too many ups, if you know what i mean. So another weekend to ponder what happens on Monday. Journal: Week 6 i arrive at MLD's House this time and have been out of confinement for a week, but still ringed. MLD is busy instructs me to place the chastity device on and i leave. On Thursday, MLD calls me, She is in Her car driving out of town and instructs me to report back on Monday. Another week without release that will make 2 full weeks without release and just 2 times in the last month. Wow, i can't believe how much MLD has cut me down. i thought once a week would be done and then slowly build to intended times. But because of MLD's schedule and sadistic nature, i am being denied a lot. Oh well, life of chastity slave in NOT easy. i agree. Journal: Week 7 i report to MLD's Studio. On Monday and i am required to clean the bathroom and vacuum. MLD is busy doing Her work and when i am done i kneel and watch MLD finish Her work. MLD unlocks me and i instantly touch my penis, which MLD states that i will get 10 for that. i am made to kneel in the hallway as MLD finishes Her work. MLD states that i better have an erection by tee-time when She is done or i am in trouble. i cannot touch myself to get an erection as MLD laughs at my predicament. i fail to get erect (semi) when MLD is done and i then have the option of releasing with 10 strokes for each stroke of my cock or come back the next day. Since i get erect easier in the morning, i choose to come back. So i am put back into chastity. i report the next day to MLD's House and i am ordered to pull my pants down and kneel on the kitchen floor and release, on newspaper MLD put down. MLD is at Her computer and completely ignores me while i release. i am instructed to count how many strokes it takes to release and after 25 i cum very intensely. picked up the newspaper, i am locked back in the chastity device and must report on the following Monday to get 250 strokes with the whip. i am informed that i get 10 strokes for each stroke of my cock by MLD. i am stunned but MLD says that is what i asked for. i have no idea what She's talking about since none of my requests stated that, but knowing Her, She took it up a notch. Oh well, i am in for a whipping. Journal: Week 8 i report to MLD's house at 9 AM and MLD, in Her pajamas, is doing Her course work. MLD moves the coffee table in the middle of Her front room and instructs me to strip and kneel in the middle of the room. i comply, as MLD returns to Her work while i wait patiently, naked, collared, and chastised in the middle of Her room. The scene is very erotic, since MLD just has Her pajamas on and i am naked kneeling in Her front room. After awhile, i am ordered to kneel over Her couch and MLD proceeds to give me 240 strokes with the flogger and 10 with the dreaded single tail whip. i am still in chastity, as i get whipped. What a sight, MLD whipping me in Her pajamas. After the whipping, MLD goes back to Her work in the dining room while i recover from the whipping on the front room floor. After awhile, MLD unlocks me and to my delight She puts a newspaper down and permits me to release. Again, MLD ignores me, as i wack off in the middle of Her front room as She works in the dining room. MLD does state that my release is of no concern to Her and just a necessary part of my training. i can't believe my good fortune, that i am allowed to come 2 times within four days. Still that's only 7 times in 9 weeks, but who is counting. i still cannot get over the fact on how much MLD has cut me down. Shoot, 7 times would normally would be just a weekend worth of wacking off. The upside is that i am not spending any money on Femdom porn sites anymore, so I guess this chastity training is working. Anyway, i must count the strokes again and this time it is only 15 strokes, MLD states i will receive 150 strokes on my cock and balls in the future. That sends a shiver up my spine as i am ordered to put the ring on. Journal: Week 9 and 10 Because of my schedule and MLD's schedule, we are unable to meet for 17 days. During that time, thank God, i am just ringed. However, i do have an unauthorized release with my wife in the mutual masturbation setting. i tell MLD, over the phone, and She states, "you know there are consequences." i know and i am instructed to report to Her Studio on Thursday at 2PM. Still, i have not released for 12 days and i am afraid that i will not be allowed to releases and i will be locked up since i have been out of the chastity device for 17 days. We'll see. i report to MLD's Studio at 2PM and i am immediately quizzed and i admit that i played with myself, but did not release. MLD asks how many times did i stroke and i could not answer. With that, i was ordered to strip and put my face on Her seat with a paper towel beneath me. MLD got out Her paddle and gave me a long hard paddling while i am made to stroke my cock. i still have my cock ring on and it is digging into me. While MLD is paddling me, She scolds me and tells me that this will teach me not to touch myself without permission again. After 10 to 15 minutes of being paddled, i am thankfully allowed to release, and again, it is very intense. i am then confined and i am grateful since i thought i would be paddled with no release. Sweat is poring down my armpits and i cannot believe how intense all of it was. MLD is great! Journal: Week 11 i go to the Browns game for the first time. i am out drinking before the game, in confinement. What a pain in the ass. i have an appreciation for females, who cannot pee standing up. i am tailgating and must find an open space to pee, since when in the device, peeing standing up is not an option. One cannot pee standing up in chastity because everything is not lined up correctly and pee sprays everywhere if not in the proper position. Anyway, i find a space and survive. On Tuesday, i go out with MLD for drinks and appetizers. What a wonderful evening! MLD is serious about me getting pierced and the talk covers a wide variety of topics, both about BDSM and our lives. MLD states how She would desire to have me be a live in slave and i would like that too. But i have a family and kids to raise. MLD does state that my chastity will be for the rest of my life, which hits a nerve with me. my cock was straining so much during the evening that i thought i was going to explode. i believe MLD is really, and i mean really is, getting off on my chastity training. No other of Her slaves will seriously try it, and i am really starting to like it even thought at points i want to rip it off. Not being able to even get erect is a bummer sometimes, as is not even being able to touch your own cock. But my cock is not mine anymore. Anyway, i wrote to MLD the next day, agreeing to take the next step and get pierced so i can get a real chastity device. It will be more practical. i am scared as hell. What do i tell my wife, etc. But my wife sees my cock 3 to 4 times a year, so we will see. In about a month, i have an overnighter scheduled with MLD. The following day, after the overnighter, i will get a fernum piercing. i can't believe it because i have always wanted to do that. i am crazy. i am scheduled to do domestic chores on Friday and i hope i can release because it will be 8 days of lock up and denial at that point. Friday comes and i work for 4 hours and get no release. However, MLD does put me into bondage for about 45 minutes while She has a quick session. That was great, but i am to report at Her house at 9AM on Monday. Another weekend of denial and confinement. Journal: Week 12 i arrive at 9AM, at MLD's house, and i am released from chastity and ordered to kneel in the corner of the kitchen and masturbate for 30 minutes, while MLD calmly sits at the computer doing Her work. It is absolutely torture, since i haven't touched my cock for 11 days, let alone have an erection. The hard floor is painful on my knees, i became light headed and had to concentrate real hard because my cock was so sensitive. Not to mention, i was ringed and the cock ring dug into me. It was sheer torture not being able to release until 30 minutes passed by, but when i did, i had an unbelievable orgasm, both on intensity and amount. i could have literally shot it across the room. i am not kidding. i cleaned up and i am ordered to report to the Studio on Friday to locked up again. i am glad that i have some time out of chastity because i do need some time to re-charge my batteries. i report to MLD's Studio on Friday and She must be in a good mood because She dos not confine me, but actually grants me a free weekend to release as many times as i want. However, there will be a price to pay. i release only 3 time because that is the only time i have to give attention to myself. Once on Friday and 2 times on Sunday. Journal: Week 13 i report to MLD's Studio on Monday afternoon and i am quizzed on my weekend activities and of course, MLD state that punishment will come later, so She can screw with my head. What else now? Anyway, i am immediately confined again and must wash the medical room floor. i complete my task and leave. i must now wait for MLD's next phone call. Journal: Week 14 MLD wanted to take me out of confinement, but i requested to stay in until my much anticipated overnighter. It will be 15 days, a new record, in confinement, until the overnighter. i hope i can make it, because after 9 days, i am a little nuts. Again, not being able to even touch your cock, let alone not being able to get erect, blows my mind. MLD does permit me to take Her out on Sunday for dinner and a show. But before i allowed to, i have to shave and wash my cock and balls for the overnighter that is in 2 days. I had a lot of fun on Sunday with MLD. She teased the crap out of me, saying She is going to tie me to Her bed and actually have intercourse with Her while She talks to Her boyfriend on the phone. She also threatened to use my nose to get Her off. Geesh, i wish that were true, on of my ultimate fantasies is to be used by MLD as Her sex slave. Since i haven't had intercourse in years, just the thought made my cock strain against the cage all night. i think that is what She wanted to do, anyway, is to tease and deny me. Again, life as a real life chastity slave. Journal: Week 15 It is Tuesday afternoon and i am nervous as hell, waiting the overnighter to start at 6PM. i guess that is part of the journey, the torment before the play. i can't wait, yet i am anxious because i know how MLD can be. i wrote Her a laundry list of requests and i know one way or another, She will give them to me in Her own terms. The Overnighter At 6PM sharp, i report to MLD's Studio for the overnighter, confined, of course. She has me strip as soon as i walk in, which i think is so cool for the start of a session. She attaches a leash to my chastity device and leads me upstairs, while i am naked. i am collared and chastised, while MLD's roommate is still in the play house. In fact, MLD leads me around the first floor, but Her roommate was busy on the phone and did not see me. i was both relieved and disappointed because being exhibited is very intense to me. We finally make it up the stairs and we start to play for a couple of hours. Then MLD informs me that She has an event She has to go to and Her roommate will make sure nothing happens to me, as i am tied to the cross with both, nipple and ball weights attached. i am stunned, but excited, as MLD leaves me in bondage. After about 15 minutes, MLD's roommate comes up into the room. She looks me over and attaches more weights to my balls. How ingenious of MLD, as this repeats itself for over an hour, until i cannot take it anymore and talk the roommate into letting me down and hogtieing me. She does this, thank goodness, because my nipples and balls were to the limit. MLD returns, strings me back up to the cross and reattaches the clamps and orders food, over the phone, and then leaves to pick it up. i am lead down into the front room by a leash, all in front of the roommate. A spreader bar is attached to my legs and MLD proceeds to put my dinner in a metal mess tray with a dog bowl of water next to it. i am in the front room, in front of the couch. Again, in front of Her roommate. i am ordered to eat at the feet of MLD as She sits on the couch eating Her dinner, watching me eat on all fours. By the way, the ball parachute is still attached to me, as i eat with just my mouth. MLD and Her roommate laugh. Her roommate finally leaves. That was a very intense scene and my balls are beginning to ache. We finish dinner. i am soundly dildoed and the parachute is taken off and i scream like a little girl. i am put back into the chastity device and we drive to MLD's house. i get the privilege of sleeping over Her house at the foot of Her bed. To my delight, MLD gets a robe on and lies on Her stomach will i get to massage the back of Her glorious body. my cock is straining against the cage as i message my beautiful Mistress until She falls asleep. i feel very close to Her at times like this. i feel as i ma melting into Her with my submission and i pray She feels the same way. A very special bond is between us. Anyway, She does wake up and shackles me to the foot of Her bed and we call it a night. However, i am very restless, i cannot sleep very well and look forward to the morning of more play. |