Thanks for sending me the IM the other day.  It is always great to hear from you.

 

    It was also extremely pleasing you hear that you have a couple of newer slaves that you enjoy.  That is so wonderful to hear.  If anything I wrote at Max Fisch encouraged them to seek you out, then I am thrilled to have played a tiny part.  Thank you for letting me know!

 

    Of course though, I confess to an intense pang of envy when I think about your dominant Feminine Authority.  I still deeply miss the wonderful intensity we shared on so many occasions.  I know I have told you before, but I hope the repetition will not bore you to hear that I have never, ever known such passionate submissive desire to obey and prove pleasing as when I was under your regular strict tutelage.  I miss the very strict discipline that I almost could not bear.  The rituals of it, the role play, the varied implements, etc.  But mostly I miss YOU...the strict YOU that never let me escape anything I had coming.  The discipline predicaments you would create, the dire choices, the sheer biting realities of your paddles, straps and canes teaching me how to be a better slave and obedient boy for you. 

 

    I also miss being your total anal slut and strap on boy.  Your enema punishment boy, medical patient, and bondage model, too, of course.  I miss shaving your legs under threat of punishment, painting your toes and worshipping your feet with painstaking attention to every detail of the procedure.  I very much miss kissing your perfect bottom when I was able to earn such a privilege.  And of course, the very lowly and servile part of me must shamefully admit that I achingly miss those occasions would you would both honor and humiliate me by reducing me to your urinal boy and golden nectar slave. 

 

    When I think about all these things I truly do ache to kneel naked before you again, my adored Domina.  I hope that some day I will be able to do this.  To me, it will be as if no time had ever passed between sessions.  My latent submissive vulnerabilities will be fully exposed and at your power and my being will be filled with passionate obedience and desire to please you completely.

 

    Thanks again for sending me that quick message, Ms. Louise.  As you can see, it means a lot to me to stay in touch with you...both here and in my fuller life, too.

 

    Love you as always.

 

    Yours,

 

        Frederick

 

    I enjoyed chatting with you today.  In general, of course, but also briefly about something you referred to as your, "sadistic needs".

 

    You mentioned this just in passing as we were discussing sessions, equipment, facilities, etc.  But the phrase and the thought stuck with me and kept popping back into my head later on.  Each time it was accompanied by powerful and compelling recollections of corporal punishment scenarios.  It has since made me feel long overdue for one of those very very strict and inescapable domestic discipline scenes I have always been so vulnerable to...and which YOU are the only Domina I have ever really experienced this with.  The Whap-type scenes, or Ma'am magazine role plays, etc.

 

    You know, the ones that end up with your very naughty boy panting and gasping and feeling that he simply MUST get the bare bottomed punishment over with or he is just not going to be able to take it any more.  Except that he has no choice in the matter.  Because YOU are the Disciplinarian and the boy will simply have to take what he has coming to him...until YOU are satisfied that the punishment is complete.  Hairbrush, paddle, strap and cane.  All in succession of ever increasing severity, according to YOUR dominant dictates.  Not ending until the flesh of the bare buttocks is shiny with harsh chastisement and glowing bright red, very very hot to the touch.  Perhaps some humiliating anal probing along the way and maybe even that dreaded lashing of the poor anus itself as a very intimate and lasting reminder that YOU can and will punish in such ways if it pleases YOUR "sadistic needs".

 

    <sigh>!

 

    It surely is not the awful pain of this kind of punishment scene that I miss, Ms. Louise.  because it sure does hurt and it sure does leave me gasping and moaning and hoping, hoping, hoping that it will stop soon and hopefully long before my poor bottom takes on that shiny, well-punished varnish mentioned above.  But I confess that I do terribly miss YOUR dominant glee in every single step and nuance of these ritual corporal punishments and domestic discipline scenes.  Your delight at the power of your Feminine Authority, the enforced nudity of your recalcitrant discipline subject, the discomfiture of being naked and possibly even bound, unable to escape your paddles and other implements until YOU determine that proper severity has been meted out.  Yoweee!

 

    My poor bottom would surely suffer terribly to be subjected to such a scene after my recent lack of regular discipline, Ms. Louise.  But when you happened to mention that little phrase about your feminine sadism being a need, I confess it brought back all the submissive yearnings to report to you for proper correction on YOUR terms when I am able to do so.

 

    Hope this makes you smile.

 

    Yours,

 

    Frederick

 

    Ohh!  Your response here was very nice to receive.  I wanted to reply right away, but could not do so.

 

    You are totally right though, of course.  This is part of the reason I feel so "forever" submissive to you.  Even when I am otherwise sometimes not submissive at all!

 

    Because it is NOT weird for me, nor has it ever been with you.  I know that both of us can "play nice" in the vanilla life.  But that underneath that, there is an extremely potent secret connection that will always make me vulnerable to that sadistic glee of yours.  So even now, it is not uncomfortable for me at all that you know my wife or could even visit us both as vanilla friends.

 

    But...given the circumstances, I also know that other side of both of us is always there.  So I too wish I lived closer to you.  I confess that I long to report to you so that you can, "totally put me in my place".  I will still look for opportunities for this to occur.  I suspect I always will.

 

    But we both seem to have that "switch" that allows us to immediately and comfortably resume "vanilla" connection and friendship without feeling awkward about things at all.  This has always been very cool to me.  Especially how it sometimes weaves into conversation as you can tease me about something that will make me blush hotly, but then we can move right on into something else as well.  You definitely control that too.  Haha!

 

    But yes, Ms. Louise, I am long overdue for a very strict reminder of my place, too, I know.  So I hope I can find a reason to visit Chicago soon.  Or something.

 

    Thanks again for your note, my friend and Domina.  Hope you are enjoying a lovely holiday weekend.

 

    Yours,

 

    Frederick